We dropped the kids off at school today, it’s funny how nervous I didn’t feel. It’s funny how sad I wasn’t. It’s not that I won’t miss them, because I will, but it just felt normal to be there, dropping them off, once again.

They were so excited that they couldn’t sleep last night, I can understand that, I was the same way as a kid, I imagine we are all programmed that way. Thoughts running across my mind, trying to prepare for the unknown, visualizing what it’s like to see my friends again after a long summer respite.

But now, as Mom, I laid in bed and fell right to sleep, knowing how funny it is that it was just time to go back to school. The kids were getting antsy, I was losing patience, today it’s cooler, windy, sunny. It feels like fall today, on that first day of school.

I don’t worry about them getting to their classrooms okay or their behavior. I worry about the classroom being too cold or too hot, whether or not they’re getting enough to drink, if they’ll eat their sandwich before their cookies, if their shoes will cause a blister. I worry about the things that they don’t, I want them to be comfortable, healthy. HAPPY.

Everyone always warns you how fast your children will grow up when you have a child. I always thought I listened and understood, I just didn’t know it would go by this fast.

I sit here and listen to Eli in the monitor, waking from his nap, knowing now how quickly this is going to go. I need to pay attention because before I know it …