I’ve been struggling with what to write about on my blogs. Part of me wants to write about all of the sunshine-y things that happen to me on a daily basis, like warm hugs from my family, my daughter constantly telling me how beautiful I am, my husband telling me how beautiful I am, my son always telling me that I’m so handsome, the fact that I am already feeling the babies move around, my pregnancy glow, how overjoyed I am that we are having twins, how lucky I feel to have the job I have, how blessed I feel that our two children love each other and respect each other and how clean my house is becoming.

But. I can’t. Because today I am exhausted. Today is the day we meet with our realtor to fill out paperwork to get our house on the market, my house is a disaster, although a clean disaster, (does that make sense?) I have a headache, I am having cramps - because this belly? Loves to grow. And maybe because I was on my hands and knees on the kitchen floor yesterday cleaning and touching up paint at nine o’ clock last night. But whatever. and my heart? Is very busy. Starting this past Saturday I woke up with constant heart palpitations, yes, I called my doctor and yes, I still have them. I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow BUT we are supposed to get anywhere from 4 inches to a foot of snow starting tonight until tomorrow night, so something tells me that appointment won’t happen.

And the snow? Puts a damper on my plans, too. (have I mentioned how much I despise winter?) Our children’s birthday party is on Saturday, where they get to celebrate with their friends and I get to sit with their mommies (who happen to be my best friends) and eat cake and hot dogs and talk about constipation and nursing, but I have yet to shop for that party and with the snow??? I guess I’ll do it hours before the party on Saturday. or maybe I’ll just order pizza. and everyone can drink water. And for cake we can have bread with cinnamon sprinkled on top.

Sounds like a great party to me.

And, finally, last night, my 4 year son was up multiple times throughout the night with a croupy cough and it reminded me of what life is like with newborn. (not to mention 2 newborns) But surprisingly, it didn’t make me cry at the thought of waking up 50 gazillion times throughout the night, it made me glad that I’m due in July and not during the school year.

See what that was? A positive spin! Look at me, I’m making progress.

And my blood pressure? 116/79. Wow, more positivity!

But that’s all the positivity I have for now, I gotta keep it real, I have seventeen hours of work to do in about four hours so I better start crackin’.

But one more positive note before I scrub the floorboards - I bought these ice cream sundae cones from my Schwan’s guy yesterday and I sat down last night and ate two, they were absolutely, positively delicious. I only have 22 more to last me the next two weeks, the mere thought of running out is making me sad. But like everything else, I’ll get through it just fine.

Thanks for letting me complain, I feel a lot better.

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